Dedicating Today To Kenny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One year ago tonight my oldest, my first born son, Kenny, took a step over into the other side of the veil that now separates him from all that love him.  His step took him to the loving arms of our Heavenly Father who wrapped His arms around him and gave him peace and love for eternity.  Our Heavenly Father instantly removed all pain and sorrow and gave my son Kenny perfect peace and release of the pain that had engulfed his body.  Love we could give him completely, but we could not release the horrible pain that he carried for too long.  I know with all my heart that God could have given him complete release from the Cancer here on this earth, but for reason that I will never know he choose not to but to choose to take him home, home to love and  beauty and peace as he had never had before.  We loved Kenny with our every being of our body...but God loved an over powering love that superceedes our ability.  His love for Kenny took all of Ken's cancer away and gave him back a complete bill of health.  God released Kenny from the burdens he carried and Kenny is now in the safety of our God, our Jesus, Kenny's protector.  Kenny now has pure joy, pure pain relief, pureness that we can never feel on this earth. Kenny is not dead but full of life with.  We are thankful to know that Kenny has pure peace now.  We are happy his pain is gone...We are happy that Ken is surrounded in pure love.
Even though I believe that all that is written above is truth and one day I will join him and see my son again, how I wish this day was a different way.  How I wish that the cancer had never found it's way to my son's body.  How I wish that the treatment had cured Kenny and gave him back his health.  How I wish that God had heard a mother's prayer for her son to live, to be healed....How I wish that today would not be a day to dedicated to Kenny the loss of his life on this earth.  Other years this would be the day that we would be visiting Ken and his family....Today we would have been sharing our gifts with each other.  Today would have been our family meal.  Today would be our time to playing with the new grand babies.  Today would have been the day that we would be celebrating Christmas with Kenny and his family.  However, today things are no longer the way they were...For all the memories I am thankful for.  For all the times we got to share, I am thankful for.  For all the love we all felt, I am thankful for.  
Today we begin a journey with Kenny.  Today we dedicate this day to Kenny.  This day we no longer have what we had in years past.  Today begins the one year that Kenny left us for his home that one day we will join him.  Today is not a happy day as days of past.  Today we will hold tight our memories of times past.  Today we feel the love that we have always felt from the moment Kenny was born.  Today we reflect and we are saddened that Kenny left us way too soon.  
Today we say:  We Love You...We Miss You...We wish you  were here...Today we dedicate this day to you Kenny my wonderful Son.  Your were and are Loved.
I love you and miss you my son.  Forever you are in my heart....I love you Kenny and am looking so forward to the day I will join you on your journey.....
Your mom forever...Love mom