Decisions

Dear John, Well once again here I go writing to you wishing you were here instead. It is almost 6 months since you are gone and plenty has happened in my life. I have made some good choices and well a few that lets just say I am not to proud of. I am at a crossroads in my life wondering which path to take. Do I take the one most traveled and less challenging and play on the safe side. Or do I take the chance and just go for it, risk everything knowing I could be hurt in the end. My heart tells me one thing and my brain tells me something else. They never could agree LOL. Our Love Story was not the normal one we had to make tough choices to be together. It was the right choice for us. They didn't think I was good enough for you but we showed them. We out lasted all their marriages because we loved each other so much. The tears are pouring as a write this never in a million years did I think I would be in this predicament. So scared yet so willing to throw caution to the wind. Do I risk everything and possibly end up with nothing. Or do I just close that chapter of my life and say that this is just one of many of life's lessons. I just don't know which way to run. I will put it in "GOD'S" hands and ask him for his help to give me the courage and the strength to get through these next few weeks. I know with him anything is possible. Whatever happens happens and he will help me to deal with it. All my love, Dra'