Deception

He must be playing me. 

My head is swirling with so many thoughts. How could someone that loves you, do this to you?

It takes a special kind of person to take that trust someone has given you and pull it out from under them. How could i love him?

How could i fall for something so fake?

How could i keep him in my life for 8.5 years? 

How could i sleep soundly next to this person for so long?

Why must i be tortured with all of these thoughts and him just be fine? 

It is hard not to want revenge. I cant drive past her place of work without getting sick to my stomach. I need a new route. 

I want to smash his phone. ...but i wont. 

I am so over my life right now.