December is here

December 1 and that means Christmas is right around the corner.  We loved the holiday season, my husband was my 4th child.  He was such a fun guy to be around especially around this season.  Always laughing and joking.  I think I miss that most of all ... the laughter.  Thanksgiving was so rough, how can I get through the next one.  I'm trying to live day to day but find myself wishing December was over.  I never thought I'd hate this season.