December 8, 2009

It's the anniversary of John Lennon's assassination.  Always a sad day for me.  Death of a dream. I'm doing okay this week.  We're supposed to get a really bad storm starting tomorrow and I find myself looking forward to hunkering down with the furkids and riding it out.  Got the generator all set so power will be okay.  2 months ago I would have been hysterical.  That's progress for sure.  I am no longer anxious being alone.  For a while there I was constantly calling people or  going to visit because I was so antsy.  Now that feeling inside is gone and I'm okay.  I still don't like having a whole day with nowhere to go or nothing to do but I find that a couple of hours out in the afternoon do me just fine. I odn't know where this "new" life of mine is going to come in.  Still just getting used to being on my own.  I don't have a lot of opportunities to socialize since my single friends live far away and my local friends are all married.  It will be interesting to see what happens to me since I can't envision anything.  I wonder if that's normal???