December 8, 2009

It's the anniversary of John Lennon's assassination.  Always a sad day for me.  Death of a dream. I'm doing okay this week.  We're supposed to get a really bad storm starting tomorrow and I find myself looking forward to hunkering down with the furkids and riding it out.  Got the generator all set so power will be okay.  2 months ago I would have been hysterical.  That's progress for sure.  I am no longer anxious being alone.  For a while there I was constantly calling people or  going to visit because I was so antsy.  Now that feeling inside is gone and I'm okay.  I still don't like having a whole day with nowhere to go or nothing to do but I find that a couple of hours out in the afternoon do me just fine. I odn't know where this "new" life of mine is going to come in.  Still just getting used to being on my own.  I don't have a lot of opportunities to socialize since my single friends live far away and my local friends are all married.  It will be interesting to see what happens to me since I can't envision anything.  I wonder if that's normal???

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CowgirlKathi
CowgirlKathi

Honey, you are currently in transition and I would say to embrace the solitude right now. As to your friends not being readily available, take a little time to become your own best friend! Indulge yourself in things you love or have always wanted to do. When I was in transition, I spent hours working in my gardens, reading, repainting some rooms in my house (I love painting and decorating) and taking special glee in being able to be in control of the remote control!
You are perched on the windowsill of your new life...take time to breathe, get your wings and then you will be able to fly!
Much love, hugs and prayers for strength, self-knowledge and happiness to you.
trisha9054
trisha9054

Like Kathi I took the time to work on myself and my farm. The solitude after all the ex\'s drama was a welcome relief.

Get into something that will occupy your mind. A hobby you always wanted to do. I live in the boonies and it sounds like you might too. I try to make a trip into town each day just to look at real people. My little farm is so busy right now I don\'t miss that trip into town.

It\'s taken me two years to get to this point in my life. Baby steps were better for me than huge steps forward. I\'m making a solid foundation for my new life.

IT seems you are doing that too. I didn\'t envision anything for my new life. I just drifted where ever my life took me and that has worked for me.

You will find your place and what you want to do. Get secure in your self first.
deleted_user
deleted_user

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