December 8, 2009
It's the anniversary of John Lennon's assassination. Always a sad day for me. Death of a dream. I'm doing okay this week. We're supposed to get a really bad storm starting tomorrow and I find myself looking forward to hunkering down with the furkids and riding it out. Got the generator all set so power will be okay. 2 months ago I would have been hysterical. That's progress for sure. I am no longer anxious being alone. For a while there I was constantly calling people or going to visit because I was so antsy. Now that feeling inside is gone and I'm okay. I still don't like having a whole day with nowhere to go or nothing to do but I find that a couple of hours out in the afternoon do me just fine. I odn't know where this "new" life of mine is going to come in. Still just getting used to being on my own. I don't have a lot of opportunities to socialize since my single friends live far away and my local friends are all married. It will be interesting to see what happens to me since I can't envision anything. I wonder if that's normal???