December 22,2020
Well I am working on my 50th day of post-op surgery. I feel that I am gaining a minute portion of my emotions but I fear that I will not have the capability to hack them completely. It is coming up on Christmas and I am pretty sure that I will not get invited up for dinner. But it is nice to know that everyone in the family will be at their moms house for Christmas. I will wish everyone a Merry Christmas just to be nice and not to get told that I didn't bother to call.
I have entered my 50th day of post-op surgery I am still dealing with pain sometimes the pain will be sharp enough to cause me to flinch in a matter of speaking. It is a lot of work presently trying to get the time management down and also trying not to tie up the bathroom. I try to start things around 630 am but sometimes it doesn't work that way as I try not to interfere with Katrina's routine but sometimes she changes up her routine. That I try to go between her outrageous amounts of trips to the bathroom. Never met a person that goes to the bathroom so much in one day, more than my wife and she suffers from Crones disease. But I can not complain.
I feel that I am moving along slowly with my healing process and I have noticed that the hole I had previously is starting to close up which is a sigh of relief but I am still spotting blood, don't know where it is coming from but I will mention it to the Doctor this morning as I have a virtual appointment with her. I am going to ask if she can extend my disability for just another month to recuperate a little longer. If Dr. Douglas does extend my disability I will try to come up with a plan on how I can handle the divorce knowingly finding out that nothing was showing on Delaware County courts as me being assigned a case number for the divorce, Nothing wasn't showing except for Danny's Divorce with Stacy. I was a little disappointed but not surprised at all on her following up on it. As I Know that Robert would still be getting Disability from SSD but she never followed up, letting the judge take him off of it. I believed in her words on to realize that she can not do the right thing. It leads me to believe that she just wants the insurance even though she could get better insurance from the state than my private insurance offers. The other thing is that she better not get the idea of getting me to remarrying her which is never going to happen as I do not want to fall into that problem again. I guess she didn't realize what she was doing with all her antics, which she is good at but this time it ended badly with me leaving her due to the abuse and Jacob as well, she did the same thing to him as well but as bad.
Today I am going to make a few calls to the lawyer about my expungement, vital statistics in Pa. to find out what there problem is again as this is going to be the 4th time I have had an issue with them and my virtual doctors appointment with Dr. Douglas to see what she has to say. One thing for sure I am in a little pain at the present moment. Also Delaware County Court House for more information and if she didn't file I will call a lawyer here in New Jersey to find out what steps that has to be taken for me to get a divorce from her. I just want the ties cut so I may move forward in my life.
So I have a lot to do today and I am hoping for the best
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Glad that you r recovery is progressing even if you have some issues with wound healing. I hope that the doctor can give you another month on your disability and you can get the spotting issue evaluated.
I am at nearly four weeks out of my final FTM surgery, and spending hours of time time in the bathroom icing down swelling and wrestling part of an implant back into required position so it heals as needed, So I certainly know the issue of needing bathroom access without having to share. I hope that your early use strategy works most of the time. Sharing that must be really tough. I am glad to be out of the round the clock pain and down to quick stabs now and then, For me, recoveries seem to go that way quite a while and then settle in suddenly to some new level. I kind of know i am on a new level when i get new motivation and focus to do non-recovery tasks, taxes, etc. So I am hopeful when I hear that you are in fairly good spirits but able to concentrate enough to investigate divorce and other legal concerns.
You hang in there. So glad that you have made it past the hurdle of the surgery and have a place to stay and so far a tough but overall good outcome on recovery. Hoping that your virtual doc visit is encouraging and you get some more time on disability status to deal with the spotting issue. I hope that dilating is doing all it needs to over time and that that is getting to be a less painful routine.
Take care. I hope that you can start to take any cutting comment from your ex as another piece of reminder of needs for fully cutting the cord from her.
Be well and safe, and have a remarkable healing. Menstrual spotting accidents and period pain is a pretty universal experience for females, so another piece of your female experience if taken that way. Hoping that you are increasingly amazed with your ongoing transformation. I am amazed with my at the moment very tender balls and partial erection, everything swollen from surgery by improving, and all of it needing some level of hourly care but so fully being the last physical pieces of help i needed to continue to have a quietly normal life as a guy. That all feels comforting and exactly ME, and just needs doc supports for small healing concerns. We have tons to be thankful for in having medical resources to get surgical help for transitioning, all in the middle of a pandemic! Pretty lucky folks we are!
Rest well and keep up the good recovery.
Liam