December 19th
Nine days since I wrote in my journal. Part of the reason is I haven't felt very happy lately.
Seems like I'm just going through the motions right now. Trying to get past December 23rd for another year. Each year is a little different in dealing with Amy's death day. They have all been sad. Some overwhelming. The shooting has increased my sadness this year.
Even so, I want to find some things to be happy about.
Victor Cruz spending time with the little boy's family and friends. That is a huge yay. I am impressed. Beyond sad of the why he even met them though.
I'm afraid my sadness is stronger than my happiness today. Maybe that's okay sometimes and I can just let it be. Trying to fight it is taking too much effort.
I'll leave this alone for now.
Seems like I'm just going through the motions right now. Trying to get past December 23rd for another year. Each year is a little different in dealing with Amy's death day. They have all been sad. Some overwhelming. The shooting has increased my sadness this year.
Even so, I want to find some things to be happy about.
Victor Cruz spending time with the little boy's family and friends. That is a huge yay. I am impressed. Beyond sad of the why he even met them though.
I'm afraid my sadness is stronger than my happiness today. Maybe that's okay sometimes and I can just let it be. Trying to fight it is taking too much effort.
I'll leave this alone for now.
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Sweet Dee, Let me give you a big and warm and tight HUG ! ! ! and wish you a Very Merry Chirstmas. I understand it is a difficult time for you, and my heart goes out to you. And while your sadness may rule today, we both know you will bounce back. You have already started by being happy b y the act of kindness preformed by Victor. Please take care, and know I am here for you in any way i can. -- Bill
Sweet Dee, Let me give you a big and warm and tight HUG ! ! ! and wish you a Very Merry Chirstmas. I understand it is a difficult time for you, and my heart goes out to you. And while your sadness may rule today, we both know you will bounce back. You have already started by being happy b y the act of kindness preformed by Victor. Please take care, and know I am here for you in any way i can. -- Bill