Dec 7, 2016

It's been a while now I have not been feeling good. Recently since Sunday with migraine.  Monday slept all day.  Body aches all over, especially my legs (I think Interferon did that to me many years ago). I feel like have a fever.  My temp is only 96.  I know from friends who went through transplant that low temp is due to liver not functioning properly. I feel myself getting depressed. Cancelling my social events. Doing the bare minimum around the house (my husband works VERY hard).  My husband, he loves me dearly but I have been sick so long I think he is numb to it....my cries fall on deaf ears. He is GOOD to me but last night I had such a sharp pain in my liver area I yelled  really loud.  He said you yelled THAT loud for a pain? I said  it felt like a knife was jabbed into me.  He left the room.  Poof. STG. I dont get it. Crying right now because I am alone MOST of  the time and HONESTLY no one wants to hear my health probs anymore. So what do I do?  What will happen when I get REALLY sick....I am scared to death to imagine.  Not to say I am notS SICK now because I am.   My journal for this morning.  Really need some pain meds and I might feel like a 1/2 way normal person. BUT no one will give them out any more. I would rather risk addiction to pain meds at this point than be in pain all the time. I KNOW it is only going to get worse...Called PROGRESSION OF CIRRHOSIS.  FML.