Death be upon me

Crying into my pillowWishing I would dieIf I had a single ropeA beautiful noose Id tie Have felt alone foreverFeel no one that really caresI sit alone in the darkRotting inside my despairI want to end this fight nowTake my own sad useless lifeSo many good people that dieWhy could it not have been IHow many ways I could end itHow many people would care? If I had my funereal tomorrow Who would even be thereFake friends who where not beside meNone of the people that caredAll of those people are here onlineEveryone here is unawareAll of my "Friends" Have ignored meBecause I quit their favorite drugNow I found even harder shitIt flows inside of my bloodI wish that my blood could spill nowAnd I dont mean just one scratchTake me away and end all the pain I dont want to look back