Dear Granny
Dear Granny,
I wish you were here right now. I wish I could come to you, and crawl in your arms and just cry. Let out all the tears I've been holding inside. My life right now Granny is a mess. I look at it and I dont even recognize it. I wish you where here to help me figure it out and help me . I miss you more then you could imagine. If there is one person I know I could come to for advice that was non-judgmental it is you. What I would do to just talk to you right now, and hear you tell me everything will be alright. Because right now, Im so broken. I love Kyle so much as you know, and he has hurt me so much. And still I stay , even when he tells me to leave. And I feel so pathetic for it. I stay mostly because I love him, but also because I have no where else to go. And Mayson, hes the innocent one in all of this. Hes the one who will be hurt the most from the outcome of this mess . And GOD DAMNIT I fought so hard to get to where I was a year ago. I was strong, and living life with a smile on my face. And Mayson was surrounded by love and got the very best of me. And now, Im just a pathetic mess of what I use to be. I dont know what to do anymore Granny. Ive fought hard for kyle and our relationship. But im fighting for it alone, And thats no way to live. But I also know how it is to be alone, and raising Mayson by myself, And its so SO SO HARD. And its scary to face all of it alone. I remember the first trip to the hosptial alone, and how they had to keep him over night and it turned into 4 nights. I never left his side. But God was I scared for my life, for my son. And It was so hard to face that alone, all alone. Why am I always alone. Everyone in my life, has left me at some point or another in my life. And I cant seem to understand, am I that terrible of a person? Do I deserve it? I wish you where here so badly you would know just what to say and just what to do. I love you Granny. Your missed everyday.
love ,
your granddaughter
I wish you were here right now. I wish I could come to you, and crawl in your arms and just cry. Let out all the tears I've been holding inside. My life right now Granny is a mess. I look at it and I dont even recognize it. I wish you where here to help me figure it out and help me . I miss you more then you could imagine. If there is one person I know I could come to for advice that was non-judgmental it is you. What I would do to just talk to you right now, and hear you tell me everything will be alright. Because right now, Im so broken. I love Kyle so much as you know, and he has hurt me so much. And still I stay , even when he tells me to leave. And I feel so pathetic for it. I stay mostly because I love him, but also because I have no where else to go. And Mayson, hes the innocent one in all of this. Hes the one who will be hurt the most from the outcome of this mess . And GOD DAMNIT I fought so hard to get to where I was a year ago. I was strong, and living life with a smile on my face. And Mayson was surrounded by love and got the very best of me. And now, Im just a pathetic mess of what I use to be. I dont know what to do anymore Granny. Ive fought hard for kyle and our relationship. But im fighting for it alone, And thats no way to live. But I also know how it is to be alone, and raising Mayson by myself, And its so SO SO HARD. And its scary to face all of it alone. I remember the first trip to the hosptial alone, and how they had to keep him over night and it turned into 4 nights. I never left his side. But God was I scared for my life, for my son. And It was so hard to face that alone, all alone. Why am I always alone. Everyone in my life, has left me at some point or another in my life. And I cant seem to understand, am I that terrible of a person? Do I deserve it? I wish you where here so badly you would know just what to say and just what to do. I love you Granny. Your missed everyday.
love ,
your granddaughter
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