dead heart

   DEAD HEART  i have a dead heart never will it beat again  no other has it  i hold a razor to my wrist  i spell your name  deep it sinks  into my skin blood flows drips down  in delight  you want me  to be there for you i won't you try so hard  to hold me i pull away you kiss me  i cry  wipe it off i love you baby  you tell her i cry harder  knowing that its not me you're talking to .............................  whiskey  vodka  calls me  you favored this in me  pain of nothing you can save i fall  knowing all pain  caused by you you try to heal me  you can't  i'm gone...............................my heart thrown  at your door step you do nothing  a tag reads "i love you and  always will you weren't there for me, or cared for me...... you just were air for me, i breathe you in and out  and still i need you" you kick it  across the room later on in life  4 years later you call me  be my wife i cry  "all you do is give me strife" i cry again  "i need you in my life" i know nothing  i still stay  get strung along hearing you play  your song of pity for me knowing past now and future  you truly never loved her i cry i bleed  he's all i need my drug  my will  my love and life i am your wife       

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deleted_user
deleted_user

That\'s intense Sriena. I really hope you aren\'t cutting yourself like that, it\'s not going to help. I wish there was something I could do for you, but i\'m limited to the internet. What went wrong? You sound SO hurt in this poem- so torn between loneliness and dependancy- I can feel pain written within these lines. Whatever guy does this to you isn\'t worth it- let me tell you. I was that kind of guy, i HATE every second of time i wasted being like that. Us guys can be jerks a lot of the time; i just want to say, on behave of us that have seen our mistakes, that i\'m sorry he\'s so bad to you because you don\'t deserve this kind of treatment AT ALL. You are MUCH more worht it: don\'t let ANY guy tell you otherwise.
caretakerofthefallen
caretakerofthefallen

*hugs* call if u need my help?