dead babys

i was looking around on this website and something lot bothers me. it was this profile of this lady that lost her baby it died and from her profile another lady and another and even a dad or few of all these people that wanted and loved there babys but didn't get to keep them. i cant understand why good people like that dont get to keep there babys but bad people like my parents do. mom never wanted me and she hated me. shed hurt me every chance she got in so many ways her mind could think of and dad hates me naturaly. i should of been the baby that died. those babys could have had chance to be great people. all i'll be is worthless loser who some day will get brain or balls or whatever and kill myself