death

I don't know what is easier not knowing when we will loose someone or when we watch someone die. I am faced right now knowing that my roommates homecoming is soon. She is in the hospital. And will only leave when God takes her home. I am so sadden by this. I felt so much guilt of not being there when Harry passed. SO I tried to be there for her. I tried to visit her in the hospital and read her scriptures. Last night she asked me never to come again. I feel so overwhelmed, so lost for words. Death is the ending of so many things. So many unanswered questions. I just don't know what to say to people or what to feel at this moment. I feel like screaming, but nothen comes out. I feel like stomping my feet and asking God WHy???? you are putting me through this again.Death is bringing darkness, Death brings silence. Death is more that just something that brings depression. It brings more than I can write today.