Day3 of journey

Today was a good day.  I really had to fight the urges to night let infertility get the best of me.  Anytime a bad thought came I had to fight it with a good one.  Even though I don't feel like, I guess you fake it until you feel it.  It helps me to talk to God and pray through this.  Sometimes I feel like it really won't happen, but I simply cant lose hope.   I am not allowed to focus on baby things, right now its too hard, yet it feels good not freakin out about everything.  I am putting the FOCUS on my hubby, knowing who I am, and loving ME!! I LOVE ME!! =)