Day to day Living
As Chekov said its the day to day livng that wears you out-not the crises of life.
The way Im feeling I would welcome a crisis=everyday life is doing my head in as they say. I woke up about 7 this morning and lay in bed and smoked till Ivan stirred around 1/4 to 8. Then I got up and made us a cup of tea and smoked 3 more cigarettes, maybe. Watched some TV and then weighed myself-it is inching down over the last few days. Good.
Got up, had toast and jam and then took Arnie for a walk around the block. Came back to find Ivan finishing my lunch. He makes my lunch for me every day and I am really grateful for this. I would make such a performance about it if I had to do it.
Now Im checking my messages, hugbook and writing in my journal.
It should be a blissful morning so why is my mood around 2-3?
I hate feeling depressed. I'm so sick of it. And yet i can feel good too, when the circumstances are no different. Why???
We are going to collect a parcel for me which i hipe is a book I ordered from Amazon-Magical Tarot Mystical Tao.It has beautiful Taoist poems/ meditations on the cards. Not that I see myself being a reader but I want to know the cards better.
I am a copout with this 300 words.
I cant think of anything to say thats deep and meaningful- or even shallow but with potential. I need to read Koon's comments before I start writing. Dedicate myself more to what I am doing. All I can think of though is I feel blah, I feel blah.
Someone has just come online to chat to me thats good. Person before Journal today.
The way Im feeling I would welcome a crisis=everyday life is doing my head in as they say. I woke up about 7 this morning and lay in bed and smoked till Ivan stirred around 1/4 to 8. Then I got up and made us a cup of tea and smoked 3 more cigarettes, maybe. Watched some TV and then weighed myself-it is inching down over the last few days. Good.
Got up, had toast and jam and then took Arnie for a walk around the block. Came back to find Ivan finishing my lunch. He makes my lunch for me every day and I am really grateful for this. I would make such a performance about it if I had to do it.
Now Im checking my messages, hugbook and writing in my journal.
It should be a blissful morning so why is my mood around 2-3?
I hate feeling depressed. I'm so sick of it. And yet i can feel good too, when the circumstances are no different. Why???
We are going to collect a parcel for me which i hipe is a book I ordered from Amazon-Magical Tarot Mystical Tao.It has beautiful Taoist poems/ meditations on the cards. Not that I see myself being a reader but I want to know the cards better.
I am a copout with this 300 words.
I cant think of anything to say thats deep and meaningful- or even shallow but with potential. I need to read Koon's comments before I start writing. Dedicate myself more to what I am doing. All I can think of though is I feel blah, I feel blah.
Someone has just come online to chat to me thats good. Person before Journal today.
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