Day Three
I had a day yesterday that has made me very "thirsty" today. I have that dry taste in my mouth right before I drink, I've figured many things out, and have come to some conclussions. This market is brutal when it comes to getting what it wants, and I am not buying into it. That makes me the enemy, and it makes the market the problem. Let me detail the word "market" because I am only talking about the "peasant" or normal people's job market. It sells tons of bullshit like we have to mold ourselves to its standards, uses us as workers, and then fucks us in the end by taking all the money!
I go to an institution that punishes me for not having my shit together as a constant, meanwhile they don't have their shit together regularly. How do I have confidence in that institution? I don't, that is the recipe to deal with that institution.
I had to ask myself a question yesterday. The question goes as follows, "Is 100 thousand dollars a year worth drinking and being demeaned by a greedy and delusional market?" No.
Now I am just talking about the job market, the job market for normal schmucks like myself who didn't buy into the shit in the first place but will starve and die if we don't submit or conform in our thirties. The rebellious shit works in our 20's but once you reach the age of 30, the "in people" start seeing your life as expendable. And people wonder why others think God has major problems with America. American basically says some of God's children are waste and shouldn't have been created. If you look at it square, this is what the current job market does and it is way more exclusionary than inclusive. However the leaders teach the younger generations that they have to be cut throat and seek unethical competitive attitudes to succeed, so we are all fucked.
I'm just going to get used to hanging around in the country and chilling in the woods, this "real world" or "in crowd of success" shit is garbage, and to think we wonder why the rest of the world is willing to kill us for instituting it upon them.
All this pressure to earn A's at a piece of shit college that can't get it's shit together for me to earn the A in the first place! They got the wrong guy thinking I'm buying that shit. I'm not even going to casually refer them to bystanders. I am learning that the corporate world has little mercy for human error, which is a natural occurrence, so who is the really dumb piece of shit, the human or the corporate world?
I take my care to get an oil change yesterday at the 4,000 mile mark and those idiots fucked up my engine so that oil change went from a 50 dollar oil change to probably a 250 dollar oil change. LOL! And I'm the one with the problem? I do everything correct, abide by the rules, listen to my superiors, however I am the one who has to pay 400% more than everyone else in the market! What type of shit is that? And I am doing all the right things according to the "successful ones."
All of their wrongs are just giving me more confidence in myself and how I used to think about things and how I do things on my own, so it is not all bad news. Who would have thought nazi's for teachers and a plethora of arrogant selfish bitches would indirectly make me more of a G?
I am fucked and will be a failure more than likely when it comes to going to this Nazi school I go to. These fuckers are trying to emulate China with their curriculum. We are much cooler and excellent than China, we actually have character, personalities, and don't think we are better than everyone else, but these fuckers see numbers and numbers only, so fuck em.
Fuck em, the only reason I am going to stick to the plan now is because of the lending the Federal Government has provided. I think I might shift my ideals to the Federal Government, they atleast contain some degree of compassion and understanding when it comes to humanity and being a human doing the best you can. The Corporate and Education departments have no souls it seems, and they have wayyyyyyy too much unrealistic ideals driving their engines. A great model of delusion I am taking orders from, and it is probably going to be the biggest example of what won't work for all in the long run I ever could have witnessed.
I am not trippin about the car, I got the money to pay for the repair, and I'd be happy to contribute to the local mechanic for the community. Does it make life a little harder? It makes life a little harder, but it's temporary. Now they say school and all this bullshit the "in crowd" of society swears is necessary is temporary as well, but that is not true, if you enter into the corporate world or the society of business or law, you have a string attached for life, and you never completely leave once you sign up for the bullshit, that is why people end up dying from stress, worry, and unnecessary bullshit being produced by it all.
All this bullshit to have an insecure wife who needs a man to feel worthy, a couple of nice vacations, a car others will stupidly think makes me more important than them, and some spare cash to blow? That doesn't seem like it is worth all this drama and stress. There is no room for happiness in this also, it's like I am retiring all likelihood of happiness by entering into this venture. Hopefully I will meet some Corporate executives that see through all the bullshit and don't fear the monster or the machine, fuck the monster and fuck the machine, both are garbage, but so many believe the monster and the machine call all shots, wrong shots, but shots never the less. Well the monster and the machine can call all the shots they want, I got bullet proof ears to their calls, and I will rattle off my own two cents without hesitation. That is a decent problem that is shifting my focus to the Federal Government. I don't want to be the subject or the object of some monster or machine thinking they have the ultimate authority to control or manipulate my life, and if they want to die miserable on the last day realizing they did it all for nothing and for no one, that's their decision.
My decision, and my final decision is to be happy and not buy into this shit. I'm going to be me, and if you try to make me something other, I just become me even more.
Most dudes are satisfied with a trophy wife, a nice car(s), a heavy bank account, financial freedom and free time. Mix that all with down time and entertainment and they feel like they are living "the life." I get it, and that is great, I am happy for them. That doesn't make me happy though, helping, being compassionate, giving to those really in need who can't get it on their own, providing inspiration, being respectful, standing up for myself, bringing it to bullies and weak minded selfish motherfuckers, letting the hated and written off express themselves and have value, those are the things that make me tick, and none of that has to do with money, a trophy wife, vacations, free time, entertaiment, so there is a direct conflict between my ideals and the ideals of the "successful." How is making the majority of the people you give order to success?
What else is going on? Not much, spending more money than I would like, however it all had a distribution angle on it that was giving back, so it wasn't troubling, it is just a fact that I need to squeeze expenses.
I am glad Rick Perry and Scott Walker did what they did. The biggest secret in the Presidential Politic is the losers have more influence overall in the long run than the winner in the short term. Most of those fuckers just want the notoriety. Like Obama just wanted to be the first black President before he wanted to be the 44th President, and that's kind of gay, but also understandable. How well did that do for his influence though? His approval number has never breached 60. Now Perry and Walker can really tell the truth and that truth will stick, those fuckers still in the running should check their egos and consult with the two. Pay those guys large money, they deserve it, in my opinion, that is a big man move to quit the Presidential race, big props. Not everyone can admit defeat, and not everyone has the balls to say they won't win and it's best for all to quit, so major respect to both of those two gentlemen.
You got me fucked up if you think I'm taking a word that HP lady says seriously. I'd rather pay homage to the Donald than listen to that basket case. The Donald needs to take a three month break, and let everyone marinate mentally on what he's been saying while the other contenders talk themselves into shit storms.
Carson, what the fuck are you doing? Nothing screams inadequacy more than accusing an entire religion of being non-applicable of being civilized, and this is coming from a black man of all people! A black man, whose ancestors were equally accused of being uncivilized, now is calling the Arab and Persian "not worthy to lead." Not a winning formula any way you construct it, but hey everyone makes mistakes so maybe he just got caught up in a moment of indecision on what to do correctly. Kasich was a bit too delusional in the debate, he's got a good record, but that could be his downfall because the common man might still go to the polls in the 2016, and the common man won't identify with a superstar record wise. That makes the HP lady out, that makes Rubio out, that makes Cruz out, Grahamn might be in, Huckabee might be in, Bush is a lock (and he can thank George for that), Christie is way too angry and angled to be in, Christie is the type of guy that has a best move of "throwing one under the bus", and what common man identifies with that?
That leaves Jindhal, and no one from the North or West is taking an Indian Cajun seriously. Sorry. Purely circumstantial. Now Rand could come from out of left field to shock the world, the common man will identify with Rand, so there is hope for Rand. Rand has the ability to actually be rational and look at things without getting too emotional or too overly exaggerated, Rand really is the common sense candidate. Don't really know about the guy from New York. I can't think of any of the others right now.
I thought Sanders was an Independent? A few years ago he claimed (I), but now he is Democrat? That is going to come up. People aren't just going to turn a blind eye to that.
Do I need to reference Arlen Specter? No I need not.
Gotta Go.
I go to an institution that punishes me for not having my shit together as a constant, meanwhile they don't have their shit together regularly. How do I have confidence in that institution? I don't, that is the recipe to deal with that institution.
I had to ask myself a question yesterday. The question goes as follows, "Is 100 thousand dollars a year worth drinking and being demeaned by a greedy and delusional market?" No.
Now I am just talking about the job market, the job market for normal schmucks like myself who didn't buy into the shit in the first place but will starve and die if we don't submit or conform in our thirties. The rebellious shit works in our 20's but once you reach the age of 30, the "in people" start seeing your life as expendable. And people wonder why others think God has major problems with America. American basically says some of God's children are waste and shouldn't have been created. If you look at it square, this is what the current job market does and it is way more exclusionary than inclusive. However the leaders teach the younger generations that they have to be cut throat and seek unethical competitive attitudes to succeed, so we are all fucked.
I'm just going to get used to hanging around in the country and chilling in the woods, this "real world" or "in crowd of success" shit is garbage, and to think we wonder why the rest of the world is willing to kill us for instituting it upon them.
All this pressure to earn A's at a piece of shit college that can't get it's shit together for me to earn the A in the first place! They got the wrong guy thinking I'm buying that shit. I'm not even going to casually refer them to bystanders. I am learning that the corporate world has little mercy for human error, which is a natural occurrence, so who is the really dumb piece of shit, the human or the corporate world?
I take my care to get an oil change yesterday at the 4,000 mile mark and those idiots fucked up my engine so that oil change went from a 50 dollar oil change to probably a 250 dollar oil change. LOL! And I'm the one with the problem? I do everything correct, abide by the rules, listen to my superiors, however I am the one who has to pay 400% more than everyone else in the market! What type of shit is that? And I am doing all the right things according to the "successful ones."
All of their wrongs are just giving me more confidence in myself and how I used to think about things and how I do things on my own, so it is not all bad news. Who would have thought nazi's for teachers and a plethora of arrogant selfish bitches would indirectly make me more of a G?
I am fucked and will be a failure more than likely when it comes to going to this Nazi school I go to. These fuckers are trying to emulate China with their curriculum. We are much cooler and excellent than China, we actually have character, personalities, and don't think we are better than everyone else, but these fuckers see numbers and numbers only, so fuck em.
Fuck em, the only reason I am going to stick to the plan now is because of the lending the Federal Government has provided. I think I might shift my ideals to the Federal Government, they atleast contain some degree of compassion and understanding when it comes to humanity and being a human doing the best you can. The Corporate and Education departments have no souls it seems, and they have wayyyyyyy too much unrealistic ideals driving their engines. A great model of delusion I am taking orders from, and it is probably going to be the biggest example of what won't work for all in the long run I ever could have witnessed.
I am not trippin about the car, I got the money to pay for the repair, and I'd be happy to contribute to the local mechanic for the community. Does it make life a little harder? It makes life a little harder, but it's temporary. Now they say school and all this bullshit the "in crowd" of society swears is necessary is temporary as well, but that is not true, if you enter into the corporate world or the society of business or law, you have a string attached for life, and you never completely leave once you sign up for the bullshit, that is why people end up dying from stress, worry, and unnecessary bullshit being produced by it all.
All this bullshit to have an insecure wife who needs a man to feel worthy, a couple of nice vacations, a car others will stupidly think makes me more important than them, and some spare cash to blow? That doesn't seem like it is worth all this drama and stress. There is no room for happiness in this also, it's like I am retiring all likelihood of happiness by entering into this venture. Hopefully I will meet some Corporate executives that see through all the bullshit and don't fear the monster or the machine, fuck the monster and fuck the machine, both are garbage, but so many believe the monster and the machine call all shots, wrong shots, but shots never the less. Well the monster and the machine can call all the shots they want, I got bullet proof ears to their calls, and I will rattle off my own two cents without hesitation. That is a decent problem that is shifting my focus to the Federal Government. I don't want to be the subject or the object of some monster or machine thinking they have the ultimate authority to control or manipulate my life, and if they want to die miserable on the last day realizing they did it all for nothing and for no one, that's their decision.
My decision, and my final decision is to be happy and not buy into this shit. I'm going to be me, and if you try to make me something other, I just become me even more.
Most dudes are satisfied with a trophy wife, a nice car(s), a heavy bank account, financial freedom and free time. Mix that all with down time and entertainment and they feel like they are living "the life." I get it, and that is great, I am happy for them. That doesn't make me happy though, helping, being compassionate, giving to those really in need who can't get it on their own, providing inspiration, being respectful, standing up for myself, bringing it to bullies and weak minded selfish motherfuckers, letting the hated and written off express themselves and have value, those are the things that make me tick, and none of that has to do with money, a trophy wife, vacations, free time, entertaiment, so there is a direct conflict between my ideals and the ideals of the "successful." How is making the majority of the people you give order to success?
What else is going on? Not much, spending more money than I would like, however it all had a distribution angle on it that was giving back, so it wasn't troubling, it is just a fact that I need to squeeze expenses.
I am glad Rick Perry and Scott Walker did what they did. The biggest secret in the Presidential Politic is the losers have more influence overall in the long run than the winner in the short term. Most of those fuckers just want the notoriety. Like Obama just wanted to be the first black President before he wanted to be the 44th President, and that's kind of gay, but also understandable. How well did that do for his influence though? His approval number has never breached 60. Now Perry and Walker can really tell the truth and that truth will stick, those fuckers still in the running should check their egos and consult with the two. Pay those guys large money, they deserve it, in my opinion, that is a big man move to quit the Presidential race, big props. Not everyone can admit defeat, and not everyone has the balls to say they won't win and it's best for all to quit, so major respect to both of those two gentlemen.
You got me fucked up if you think I'm taking a word that HP lady says seriously. I'd rather pay homage to the Donald than listen to that basket case. The Donald needs to take a three month break, and let everyone marinate mentally on what he's been saying while the other contenders talk themselves into shit storms.
Carson, what the fuck are you doing? Nothing screams inadequacy more than accusing an entire religion of being non-applicable of being civilized, and this is coming from a black man of all people! A black man, whose ancestors were equally accused of being uncivilized, now is calling the Arab and Persian "not worthy to lead." Not a winning formula any way you construct it, but hey everyone makes mistakes so maybe he just got caught up in a moment of indecision on what to do correctly. Kasich was a bit too delusional in the debate, he's got a good record, but that could be his downfall because the common man might still go to the polls in the 2016, and the common man won't identify with a superstar record wise. That makes the HP lady out, that makes Rubio out, that makes Cruz out, Grahamn might be in, Huckabee might be in, Bush is a lock (and he can thank George for that), Christie is way too angry and angled to be in, Christie is the type of guy that has a best move of "throwing one under the bus", and what common man identifies with that?
That leaves Jindhal, and no one from the North or West is taking an Indian Cajun seriously. Sorry. Purely circumstantial. Now Rand could come from out of left field to shock the world, the common man will identify with Rand, so there is hope for Rand. Rand has the ability to actually be rational and look at things without getting too emotional or too overly exaggerated, Rand really is the common sense candidate. Don't really know about the guy from New York. I can't think of any of the others right now.
I thought Sanders was an Independent? A few years ago he claimed (I), but now he is Democrat? That is going to come up. People aren't just going to turn a blind eye to that.
Do I need to reference Arlen Specter? No I need not.
Gotta Go.
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