Day Three

   I had an okay day, then all of a sudden, I felt sad.......just like THAT!  It's only been three days and now I'm questioning whether I should have sent him away or not!!  I know it was the right thing to do for him and for us, but, the selfish part of me just wants HIM back.....the way he used to be.  Why does it have to hurt?  I feel as though I'm missing a part of myself, which I guess I am!  Before he left, he said to me......."please don't decide you don't want me while I'm gone.....I couldn't bear the thought of not having you with me forever, you are my best friend and the best thing that has ever happened to me".  If that were so, then WHY couldn't/didn't he stop??????????