Day Three

Well I relapsed. A friend mentioned that I pay too much in Income Tax and that I should claim Head of Household. I use TurboTax so for fun I checked it out. I would go from paying $2001 to paying $1400 for Federal Tax and from $303 to $19 for State Tax and all I have to do is claim my son while he is in school. He doesn't have to live with me just claim he would if he wasn't away at school. He goes to a private school which costs about $50,000 a year to attend. He gets about $20,000 a year in grants from the school, he has to take out student loans for the rest. Hid father makes over $130,000 a year so he gets absolutely no FAFSA money. When I first separated from my husband my son was still in High School I told him then that if he wanted to use me as his support he would qualify for the maximum help from everyone. Nothing happened, so his dad helped him get student loans. The man pays only for his plane ticket to school and $100 a month on his interest for one student loan. NO clothes, no supplies, no money to pay for his medicine or cleaning, no money for any thing! I sent $100 a month his Freshman year because I couldn't stand him not having any money, of course I don't have the money it is all on a credit card. I sent $200 this year but finally had to advise him I can't continue, if he needs money he needs to ask his dad, he already has told me he does he just doesn't know when his dad will send him the money or how much? All I want to do his help him and if I am helped also that is just a bonus. So I sent him copies of both of my tax returns, I haven't actually sent any in. I advised him if he doesn't want to help me for this year, then why not start this year. He can stay with his dad and only see me as much as he ever has. So far no response. I know I probably shouldn't have, but I was talking to another friend who's son gets his entire education paid for and her husband made as much as mine until a year ago. Yes times are hard for them now, but times are hard for me, why do I have to continue to suffer, when I could actually help my son? But if he doesn't reply I won't send any more info and will do my very best to forget the whole thing. I will never offer to help him again on anything unless he specifically asks for help and then only if I can. Why am I so shallow? I couldn't even go 3 days without trying to communicate with them. I know I need to get rid of this computer, but like with smoking, there are going to situations you can't get away from. But like trisha said just start again, so I am. But I am kicking myself for failing so soon in my goal.