Day Three

I think today was was a step in the right direction. She had been kind of being mean and really rude to me lately and I was getting sick of it, but at the same time I didn't want to get angry at her. If I did that things would get worse. So while she was at the gym, I was venting to myself and really upset about how she treats me. Although I would have liked to send her a VERY angry message, I just played it cool and sent her a text telling her I don't like how she treats me. I basically just explained that I treat her with so much respect and even if she doesn't like me then she should treat me with the same respect. I tried to be as nice as possible to avoid conflict, and I really think it worked. She texted me after and we talked like normal for quite awhile, and she wasn't mean or didn't seem mad at me. I think I did get to her a little bit.
Although this seems more like a step towards being closer to her, I think it is a good step for my mental health. The way she was treating me was making me very stressed out and it was nice to get that off my mind, and now she should be acting nicer.
I guess the bad news is that she says she doesn't know if she thinks seeing me when I go home is a good idea. She didn't say she won't but just said she was unsure, hopefully if I'm nice, and prove that I am doing ok, she probably will let me see her.