day one sixty one

yup.
i've been off all rheumatoid disease-related meds for... three and a half weeks.  it's been four weeks since i took enbrel.  and i still haven't started humira yet.  number one i don't have it.  number two i'm still sniffly.  i mean, just a little bit.  and i've been coughing just a little bit.  only bringing up teensy bits of phlegm.  but still.  i don't want to risk it.  i usually take mtx on saturday and did enbrel on wednesday, so i'm thinking i'll restart the mtx this saturday unless i start feeling worse.
because my pain is really bad.  it's like you don't realize how much the mtx helps until it's gone.  i guess it helped a little bit at a time when i first started taking it, so i didn't really notice.  now it's like UGH everything hurts.  my wrists and fingers are so bad.  so bad.  my ankles and feet are really bad.  my hips and shoulders are just horrible.  everything hurts.
i'm feeing a bit better, a bit more stable, mentally/emotionally speaking.  i've been working on practicing positivity daily again, and it's making a difference.  wish it worked for physical issues!