Day One: A tentative daily journal

I do not really know if I am going to do a daily journal, I just feel like this is a small way for me to vent without it seeming like I am begging for attention. Frankly I have hated today, I have come to the realization that I have at least 20 or so projects that I need to complete by the end of semester which is around a month away or so. I just feel like I am not wanted at home, stupid I know but its hard to feel that when I can't really go to my own parental guardian for something without getting a sarcastic remark or getting yelled at. I cant seem to do anything to please her. I just feel like crap today and have felt like crap for a while. It also doesnt help to know the fact that my longest ex is on her 8th or so girlfriend/boyfriend since we broke up about 7-8 months ago, when I havent even really dated much during that time, and I have only dated one person and that didnt last long. I just do not really know what to do, I want to get my ex out of my life, but I just cant I feel like I need her, when all she really does is depress me and hurt me. I want to move on. I need to stop stressing out because I feel like it is starting to affect me mentally and physically.