Day One

Today is the first day of actively trying to stop lying.  I came clean about my drinking yesterday, to my wife, which lead to my lying to her about it. It was not a good scene. She says our marriage is empty and I am emotionally empty. I don't know who I really am anymore because of the lying. I lie about small silly things that really have no value to big elaborate lies. I am finally recognizing that I am a compulsive liar and it's probably why I am unable to emotionally bond with my wife.