Day one

I suppose that there should be an art to crying.  I meant can we just cry and be done with it and smile.  I'm a naturally happy human.  But now " my eyes leak " heck I don't want yo ha g out with myself much less have anyone else around.  My son my joy my reason and hope for the future has estranged himself from me.  I'm not sure why.  I was momma one day and left  bewildered the next.