Day Four
Up at 4:00 to "prove" to the education fraternity in America I am "worthy" of their orders. Even though the material constructs a fraction of what is needed to survive in real life and in the real world, I am willing to accommodate the demand.
The problem is the tenured educators have little incentive to see me succeed, and more incentive to see their own marks recorded as success. How can you teach someone else as an educator if you're more concerned with how well you'll fair outside of the class room status and credential wise?
I have two nazi's for teachers and one good ole boy who must be scared to challenge the system. All the founding father's challenged the system they were under, so why am I the one who is always getting in trouble for doing that primarily?
That answer is always bullshit, the bullshit factory seems to have rested right within the parameters called my life, and I'm tired of the bullshit that is one sided and controlling me.
These laws are so out dated and harmful it's not even funny and a miracle no one hasn't gone ape shit on those who continue to support the inconsistency.
I think it is safe to say I am considerably lawless when compared to the current law, however I am lawful by not taking the fight to the law directly out of respect. It's impossible to have a meaningful conversation with this law, and it is a law driven by delusion.
My specific problem is I have a teacher who isn't open to change, and one day he will die with that impossible to learn from attitude and I will have learned nothing, with the fact remaining that I am the student, and the student shouldn't be teaching the teachers, but the better news is I am not wanting to say "fuck em", I am really feeling pity for them and am grateful my mind doesn't register reality in fear like they do.
The curriculum and work required to pass these basic credit driven classes is not comprehensive and often delegated to the book, which is too expensive for most, and too time consuming in this current world for it to be a success. The campus I go to is like a ghost town already and we are only in the 5th or 6th week. I'm not learning fundamentals or learning subjects, I'm learning how the work force and employers want me to be their bitch. Well I'm not a bitch, and I'll never be a bitch, and I should be making them my bitches, but then I would be a bitch like they are, so it's not even worth trying!
I did an assessment of my finances, something they aren't teaching in school because if we learned that we wouldn't be willing to pay them for their bullshit. However I did an assessment of my finances and the need for my anxiety in that area is unfounded. I have financial credits established so my expenses dropped about 30 percent from that, and it took the burden of worry away from me.
My transportation situation took a major hit yesterday and the guy indirectly responsible for amending the situation showed clearly he has not only poor judgment but completely inaccurate judgment. And that fucker has the power to make me mobile again, so that is disturbing and horrible business as well.
If I lose my car I am not completely fucked because I have a meeting close by, I have social security since I am clearly disabled from alcoholism, and where I work a bunch of angels have my back and treat me with respect, so my job will be stable. My alcoholism wants to focus on this racist country boy who has the reigns on the car I still have debt towards, and I'm over giving these racist free passes due to their racist kinfolk teaching them when they were young racism is a part of life. Racism isn't a part of life, no child is born racist, and I'm tired of letting fuckers like that continue to do wrong and harm others with their illegitimate and inbred beliefs, it's bad for the Country and it's bad for business too. If you're not smart enough to know racism is wrong and counterproductive you shouldn't be earning in the first place. That is the free market though, and that is a principle of the free market, even the idiots can call the shots at times.
I am not obligated to help this world, but I am obligated to tell it when it is wrong.
I was very thirsty yesterday, the nazi teacher clearly showed a fuck up and made a glaring mistake when she was talking to me trying to pressure me into success. She pushed forward a deadline five days before it was due, threw it on me like I was behind, when I was on pace for success, dictated in my own mind correctly how to complete the assignment, and I just had to accept that God has surrounded me by teachers who aren't all there.
I still have to be grateful that there are even teachers in my life! A shitty teachers is still better than a no teacher at all I suppose. The fact remains that the government is giving me a lot of money to deal with this shit, so that makes it a lot easier. I'm a single male with no dependents, nothing connected to my finances generally, and really nothing to lose if I fail. Not drinking and being aware of my sexual liability as a good looking person is success for me, so I don't give a fuck if I am a janitor for the next 40 years, I've already lived a life of success.
One thing I realized is I don't do being a bitch well, and if people try to make me a bitch I have a first move of killing them with no remorse or feelings of guilt. It's who I am, and God seems to be alright with it, however out of respect for God, I refuse to kill, even though it is my design and initial instinct, because if I were to do what I do and kill first, it would kill the opportunity for God to change the people trying to make others bitches. The bitch makers end up being bitch made. That's better than murder. That's murder without the loss.
This is going to be public so let me stop talking about harmful topics like killing and murder, I was just trying to make a point and gain awareness and focus. It's not cool to harm others, even if they are harming you, but it might be necessary if they refuse to stop, or aren't aware of who you really are. The best course is to just let God do all the "harming" and live a peaceful forgiving life.
Most guys probably think failing to others standards won't get them the Mercedes or chick with perfect tits, but the wise man knows a fail is another opportunity to succeed.
I have to admit I am a sports fanatic, but not obsessed with sports for some reason, probably because I'm naturally an athlete and never had to obsess to understand any sport. I need to play some sport in the name of sanity. I was persuaded to think being a bitch and a robot for the educational fraternity was a bigger virtue than physical exercise, however honoring the educational fraternity is raising the blood pressure and exercising always decreases it so how is that accurate math? I will be playing racquetball one of these days. Actually I am really understanding that I need to focus on being in business or being a lawyer, this community college bullshit is not stimulating enough for me and I am settling for less by attempting to patronize it. It's like playing soccer with beginners and thinking they won't resent me for clearly being at least in the intermediate category. It's not going to work, some wanna be Messi will eventually hate me for being ideal, and then that will lead to conflict, so it is better to let him function in delusion and learn on his own that he won't ever be Messi, as hard as he tries, and for me to shift to being me.
Am I being selfish in any way? I'm being a bit selfish by wanting to be first, even though I am capable of being first and would make a good number one, it's not worth the stress and drama haters produce. For what? To assimilate to a law that has been wrong and will continue to be wrong because no one has the balls or courage to challenge it regularly. You're a problem to the law if you challenge it, especially the antiquity factor of the culture and society. What a cop out! If I state a wrong honestly I automatically become the enemy to antiquity. Complete bullshit and misuse of power.
Am I dishonest? I have been a bit dishonest with my spending, for instance I spent on technology above par slightly because I was focused on how competition is making function inconsistent between Mircosoft and Apple. It should be similar operating systems but the engineers are focused on bonuses and becoming trillionaires, so great things just become good.
Am I self seeking? Not really, lately I've been letting women do their thing knowing damn well if I took the information as gospel I would do the exact opposite of what should be done for everything to go smoothly and best for all. If they want to teach others how not to do things, that's their prerogative, and if they think they are doing the right thing, good for them, but I am just grateful I can see the wrong, and don't have to call them out on it. Let the captain save a hoes save the day in that area. Being a janitor is seeming more an more reasonable day by day. I think that is not selfish to let someone be wrong, life and the world will show them they need to change or continue to suffer, so I don't have to mimic that, it is already doing it's job, I don't have to show others who won't listen to how they are wrong, that they are wrong, it's not my duty or desire, I'd rather enjoy watching them turn into bitches and become bitch made. The great news is I play no role or part in the "becoming bitch made" process.
Don't take measures that ensure you will become made like a bitch.
Have a great day.
The problem is the tenured educators have little incentive to see me succeed, and more incentive to see their own marks recorded as success. How can you teach someone else as an educator if you're more concerned with how well you'll fair outside of the class room status and credential wise?
I have two nazi's for teachers and one good ole boy who must be scared to challenge the system. All the founding father's challenged the system they were under, so why am I the one who is always getting in trouble for doing that primarily?
That answer is always bullshit, the bullshit factory seems to have rested right within the parameters called my life, and I'm tired of the bullshit that is one sided and controlling me.
These laws are so out dated and harmful it's not even funny and a miracle no one hasn't gone ape shit on those who continue to support the inconsistency.
I think it is safe to say I am considerably lawless when compared to the current law, however I am lawful by not taking the fight to the law directly out of respect. It's impossible to have a meaningful conversation with this law, and it is a law driven by delusion.
My specific problem is I have a teacher who isn't open to change, and one day he will die with that impossible to learn from attitude and I will have learned nothing, with the fact remaining that I am the student, and the student shouldn't be teaching the teachers, but the better news is I am not wanting to say "fuck em", I am really feeling pity for them and am grateful my mind doesn't register reality in fear like they do.
The curriculum and work required to pass these basic credit driven classes is not comprehensive and often delegated to the book, which is too expensive for most, and too time consuming in this current world for it to be a success. The campus I go to is like a ghost town already and we are only in the 5th or 6th week. I'm not learning fundamentals or learning subjects, I'm learning how the work force and employers want me to be their bitch. Well I'm not a bitch, and I'll never be a bitch, and I should be making them my bitches, but then I would be a bitch like they are, so it's not even worth trying!
I did an assessment of my finances, something they aren't teaching in school because if we learned that we wouldn't be willing to pay them for their bullshit. However I did an assessment of my finances and the need for my anxiety in that area is unfounded. I have financial credits established so my expenses dropped about 30 percent from that, and it took the burden of worry away from me.
My transportation situation took a major hit yesterday and the guy indirectly responsible for amending the situation showed clearly he has not only poor judgment but completely inaccurate judgment. And that fucker has the power to make me mobile again, so that is disturbing and horrible business as well.
If I lose my car I am not completely fucked because I have a meeting close by, I have social security since I am clearly disabled from alcoholism, and where I work a bunch of angels have my back and treat me with respect, so my job will be stable. My alcoholism wants to focus on this racist country boy who has the reigns on the car I still have debt towards, and I'm over giving these racist free passes due to their racist kinfolk teaching them when they were young racism is a part of life. Racism isn't a part of life, no child is born racist, and I'm tired of letting fuckers like that continue to do wrong and harm others with their illegitimate and inbred beliefs, it's bad for the Country and it's bad for business too. If you're not smart enough to know racism is wrong and counterproductive you shouldn't be earning in the first place. That is the free market though, and that is a principle of the free market, even the idiots can call the shots at times.
I am not obligated to help this world, but I am obligated to tell it when it is wrong.
I was very thirsty yesterday, the nazi teacher clearly showed a fuck up and made a glaring mistake when she was talking to me trying to pressure me into success. She pushed forward a deadline five days before it was due, threw it on me like I was behind, when I was on pace for success, dictated in my own mind correctly how to complete the assignment, and I just had to accept that God has surrounded me by teachers who aren't all there.
I still have to be grateful that there are even teachers in my life! A shitty teachers is still better than a no teacher at all I suppose. The fact remains that the government is giving me a lot of money to deal with this shit, so that makes it a lot easier. I'm a single male with no dependents, nothing connected to my finances generally, and really nothing to lose if I fail. Not drinking and being aware of my sexual liability as a good looking person is success for me, so I don't give a fuck if I am a janitor for the next 40 years, I've already lived a life of success.
One thing I realized is I don't do being a bitch well, and if people try to make me a bitch I have a first move of killing them with no remorse or feelings of guilt. It's who I am, and God seems to be alright with it, however out of respect for God, I refuse to kill, even though it is my design and initial instinct, because if I were to do what I do and kill first, it would kill the opportunity for God to change the people trying to make others bitches. The bitch makers end up being bitch made. That's better than murder. That's murder without the loss.
This is going to be public so let me stop talking about harmful topics like killing and murder, I was just trying to make a point and gain awareness and focus. It's not cool to harm others, even if they are harming you, but it might be necessary if they refuse to stop, or aren't aware of who you really are. The best course is to just let God do all the "harming" and live a peaceful forgiving life.
Most guys probably think failing to others standards won't get them the Mercedes or chick with perfect tits, but the wise man knows a fail is another opportunity to succeed.
I have to admit I am a sports fanatic, but not obsessed with sports for some reason, probably because I'm naturally an athlete and never had to obsess to understand any sport. I need to play some sport in the name of sanity. I was persuaded to think being a bitch and a robot for the educational fraternity was a bigger virtue than physical exercise, however honoring the educational fraternity is raising the blood pressure and exercising always decreases it so how is that accurate math? I will be playing racquetball one of these days. Actually I am really understanding that I need to focus on being in business or being a lawyer, this community college bullshit is not stimulating enough for me and I am settling for less by attempting to patronize it. It's like playing soccer with beginners and thinking they won't resent me for clearly being at least in the intermediate category. It's not going to work, some wanna be Messi will eventually hate me for being ideal, and then that will lead to conflict, so it is better to let him function in delusion and learn on his own that he won't ever be Messi, as hard as he tries, and for me to shift to being me.
Am I being selfish in any way? I'm being a bit selfish by wanting to be first, even though I am capable of being first and would make a good number one, it's not worth the stress and drama haters produce. For what? To assimilate to a law that has been wrong and will continue to be wrong because no one has the balls or courage to challenge it regularly. You're a problem to the law if you challenge it, especially the antiquity factor of the culture and society. What a cop out! If I state a wrong honestly I automatically become the enemy to antiquity. Complete bullshit and misuse of power.
Am I dishonest? I have been a bit dishonest with my spending, for instance I spent on technology above par slightly because I was focused on how competition is making function inconsistent between Mircosoft and Apple. It should be similar operating systems but the engineers are focused on bonuses and becoming trillionaires, so great things just become good.
Am I self seeking? Not really, lately I've been letting women do their thing knowing damn well if I took the information as gospel I would do the exact opposite of what should be done for everything to go smoothly and best for all. If they want to teach others how not to do things, that's their prerogative, and if they think they are doing the right thing, good for them, but I am just grateful I can see the wrong, and don't have to call them out on it. Let the captain save a hoes save the day in that area. Being a janitor is seeming more an more reasonable day by day. I think that is not selfish to let someone be wrong, life and the world will show them they need to change or continue to suffer, so I don't have to mimic that, it is already doing it's job, I don't have to show others who won't listen to how they are wrong, that they are wrong, it's not my duty or desire, I'd rather enjoy watching them turn into bitches and become bitch made. The great news is I play no role or part in the "becoming bitch made" process.
Don't take measures that ensure you will become made like a bitch.
Have a great day.
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