Day Four

Bit of a stressful day. I was expecting a text from her at around 11 and didn't get one. That was when she usually would text me. She gets out of school at 2:15 and didnt text me then either. So then I started to panic thinking I may have done something wrong. Finally got a text from her around 4, thank God. She had just forgot to text me at lunch like usual, and then went to the gym after and had just gotten out. We had a good talk for awhile, unfortunately I asked her to Skype and she said no again, but I was sort of expecting it.
That night I made a big mistake though. I was making a collage for a project for a class, and I was looking for some supplies in my desk when I came across an old love letter from her. All I did was read like half a sentence before I started crying my eyes out. Eventually I made it through the letter, but not after a long time crying. Some of the stuff she said really just broke my heart. She said things like "I'm so sorry I'm being a bad girlfriend and I promise I will get better" as well as the most heart breaking part, when she said "Never leave me!". I typed out some portions of it and send them to her in a text. Maybe hearing her own words for how she used to feel about me will bring back the girl I once knew.
It absolutely killed me reading that letter. I have several more but there is no way I can read them tonight without crying again. Hopefully the text I sent her will break through and she will have a change of heart. Im hoping.