Day by day

Every day is a struggle for those of us with mental illiness.  It took me a long time to admit to myself that I really had a problem and even longer to seek help.   I was with a counselor service for 5 years.  And I went through 3 counselors.  the first two counselors moved.  The second counselor, I felt was the best.  she introduced me to cognitive therapy, as well as telling me about meet up groups.  Unfortunately she left after a year.  My next counselor, while nice, basically wasn't any better than meeting someone for a coffee clutch.  she would just sit there and let me babble on and on and didn't really offer much.  I was the one making suggestions on how I'd like our sessions to go.  and at first she would do some exercises with me from the cognitive therapy book.  But then our sessions went back to talking about things like my hair or outfits, and not working on what I needed to work on.    

When I got insurance through ACA I had to leave because the insurance didn't take the counseling service. I was paying via a sliding scale.  I took a year off and just recently went back to counseling.  My new counselor recommended a book "the Anxiety and Phobia Workbook." by Edmund Bourne.  So far I find it helpful.  I am seeing my counselor on Friday. 

I am going for a walk in a few minutes.   I think it will help me feel better.