Day and Night

I don't understand how I can be so "good" all during the day. I will pack my lunch and make sure the portions are right and there is a healthy balance of food. However, when I walk in the door it's like this sleeping giant wakes up and I want to eat all the "bad" food. Carbs torture me all evening long. I think about eating them, not eating them, when I can eat them again. More often than not I will resist until the last moment before bed then wander in the kitchen with the excuse of tidying up and take a bite of something and then it turns into a binge. I have tried not eating at all past a certain time or allowing myself a small snack after dinner. All efforts ultimately end in failure. I think the longest I have gone is a week. Life is not meant to be this way.