Day 8 & 9

I would say I was feeling excellent today, but I had to get up a bit earlier than I would have liked...haha! oh well. Anyway, I made through another two days without ED behaviors...I guess I should define ED behaviors as B & P-ing, since ED technically still lurks around and watches what I eat. I have to say though, I did tell him to F-off for the most part; ie. when he tried telling me "you shouldn't eat yet" even though I was hungry, or "if you have seconds you have to purge." I pounced him down! And I even reached out last night by calling Gab, and when he didn't answer, I called Jamie from group. She didn't answer either, but actually that was fine. The mere fact that I made an effort to reach out, grounded me and helped me to tap into the strength that God was giving me. I was a beautiful thing, I must say.
Thank you God for all your help. You guide me when I put my trust in you. Help me to continue to place myself in your arms and let you carry me when I feel weak. You are so amazing. And i know I always say that, but I am just constantly and repeatedly amazed by your presence in my life. Thank You!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!