Day 7 - First Day Off sober

Today was my first day off since Day 1 and it has been the toughest day by far for me. I planned on staying busy all day but halfway through the day I had some funny turn in my mood. I started to constantly think about having a drink and was even thinking of grabbing the vodka out of the black bin which I threw out last week. I felt really depressed for hours.
Starting from the begining has definetley reminded me of how tough these first few weeks are and how much energy I need to put into this to focus. Im not going to let this beat me again. I did so well last time and I intend to do better this time. IM NOT GOING BACK TO THAT CRAPPY LIFE...I wouldnt even call it living to be honest though.