Day 6 & 7

Still going strong. And yesterday Gab and I had another couple over for a BBQ and I made it through without ED...Well, he was there, but not too strong. I allowed myself to eat certain things (like these cheeses I put out for an appetizer). Then we sat to eat I allowed myself the ravioli I had made. I looked at my friend to see how much she put on her plate and copied her. It was a good learning event for me. Admittedly, ED did chime in a bit and restricted me from eating the last 2 ravs on my plate :/. I wasn't too full or anything. He just told me I couldn't finish the last two. That pisses me off! Next time I will be more equipped to recognize ED and tell him to F-off and eat the ravs if I feel like. At least I didn't purge and I feel like I ate to a pretty good fullness level. I probably could have eaten a bit more, but I'll forgive myself for that because I am still learning to walk on my own (without ED as a crutch), and with each step I feel like I am getting stronger. 
Today, I have my volunteer job from 11-12:30, then have to be in RWC by 1, then redwood shores by 2:45...so when am I going to eat lunch?? I will pack something for myself to eat on my way to RWC. This is my backup plan because I plan to eat the food at my volunteer job. I feel like I need the back up plan just in case the meal there is too scary. Hopefully one day I will reach a point of not needing a back up plan. I'm going to have to overcome this fear to reach that point though...maybe I'll challenge it today.
Thank you God for this day! Thank you for being with me yesterday at the BBQ as well. Please help me to keep You in my heart throughout my day a be the person (without ED) You made me to be. I Love You and Thank You for being so amazing!!