Day 5 & 6

Success and Success!! F U ED!!! Haha!! I feel like I have my boxing gloves on today and I'm ready to fight....I enjoyed a piece of Gab's b-day cake with him yesterday :) Admittedly, I went on a hike yesterday morning, so my ED voice told me "ok, you can have that piece of cake since you burned extra calories today." I think today i will have another piece of the cake, but without going on a hike (or "burning extra calories"). Its funny because, I think I don't even really like the cake that much. I just feel like I need to have a piece to prove to myself I can and just to spite ED. After all, the night before last I had a dream that I binged on that cake and tried to purge it, but I couldn't find a secret spot to get rid of it. The dream was very anxiety provoking and I woke up not knowing if it was real or not at first. Obviously ED is in my subconscious, and I feel like these baby steps I am taking (i.e. eating another piece of chocolate cake) are slowing killing ED. He is melting away (slowly) like the wicked witch of the west :) HA!
Thank you God for this new and beautiful day. Thank you for the strength you have given me so far in achieving my goal. Last night in particular, I really needed you and you came through. I look forward to the lessons and experiences you have in store for me today! I love you! Thank You for my LIFE!!! <3