Day 52, morning

Today is day 52.  I met my goal of regular exercise yesterday evening with a dog walk and some time on my stationary recumbent while watching tv.  Today is a lift day.  I have picked out another set of five exercises and I will alternate these every other day with my other five.  Again my challenge here will be exercising after work.  When I get home, I really long for the yoga exercise called horizontal on the couch.  Also a snack before exercising would be good idea as I'm pretty much on empty when I get home and am ready to cook dinner.
As I left work and was walking to my truck, I had a desire to go to the liquor store.  It's only a couple blocks away.  I could have bet on myself here that I was going to the liquor store.  It was that strong.  It was worrisome and scared me.  I reminded myself that I didn't just want a drink but a whole fifth.  I reminded myself what that feels like, not the perceived good but the reality.  Nothing was really shaking it until I said to myself that's nice that I want that, but there's a problem...my mind waited wondering what this problem might be...I don't drink.  That unlocked it.  Another day done.  High five to myself.  And a reminder that as strong as that urge was.  It lasted only the time of crossing the street and going quarter of the way through a parking lot.  
This is day 52.  I am committed to making a life change.  I do not drink.  I am the tree, not the leaves.  I am the mountain.  It is day 52 and I am solid.