Day 42 smoke-free

Well, I have this colonoscopy procedure at noon, soooo I think todays going to be a lazy day. My friend/ sponser is driving me to have this done since I am not allowed to drive. It will be okay had another one of these procedures done in March and it all worked out.
I have the open window this morning for my work to trade my trips for something better.. going to try to find some trips that motivate me to get to work,and are better than what I was already assigned for October. Need to work!
I am soooo tired of my constant stuggle with this Bipolar Disorder. Its amazing how there have been times when I have done well and been stable for months, then my medicine stops working. I think I am going to go to my friends doctor (I know her from my friday afternoon bipolar group ) I need a second opinion. I have been with my doctor for atleast 3 years but we have tried every mood stabalizer... and it might help to have a new pdoc to take a fresh look at this.