Day #4 - Lonliness

i don’t know if anyone is truly here and I don’t know what I expected when I signed up for this site...I do know this...


Just having this space where I know I can let out my struggles helps me. Lying is isolating and I can’t stand it.  I feel alone in crowded rooms as my reality is mine only.


This morning my family and I had a deep discussion around the issues I have caused.  There were tears from my family and my gut reaction was to lie and hide my sadness over what I caused with statements that protected them from my fears.  But I didn’t.  I faced it head on.


We have a 6 hour drive together and I am sure there is still more talking toncome and I need to take the protective self out of my mind now.  I need to be open and honest. I need to show my weakness and let them know there is a real me that is truly there.

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Patdeemoe
Patdeemoe

Hearing your story is inspirational to me and others, believe me. It definitely takes effort to be open and honest with your family and friends.
I find encouragement, on this site, seeing others make steps to improve their lives. I hope the best for you in your quest.