Day #4 - Lonliness
i don’t know if anyone is truly here and I don’t know what I expected when I signed up for this site...I do know this...
Just having this space where I know I can let out my struggles helps me. Lying is isolating and I can’t stand it. I feel alone in crowded rooms as my reality is mine only.
This morning my family and I had a deep discussion around the issues I have caused. There were tears from my family and my gut reaction was to lie and hide my sadness over what I caused with statements that protected them from my fears. But I didn’t. I faced it head on.
We have a 6 hour drive together and I am sure there is still more talking toncome and I need to take the protective self out of my mind now. I need to be open and honest. I need to show my weakness and let them know there is a real me that is truly there.