Day 3 - not so easy to get free

Today is proving surprisingly difficult so far, despite the positive start! I feel very restless and totally aware of how much sex there is in my mind - how many "marks" there are. Photos in my phone - or others - to send to other people ... How I struggle with each person - will I meet them will i not? Are they "ok" to meet because I have met already? Because they are not from Grindr? It's obvious that other people don't go through their day like this. Many people of my age just don't have all this "stuff." But it bears reminding. Really I do want to be sober and calm ... to be able to, for example. do the gardening or calmly go through the day. But it's so far from where I have been.