Day 3 - back to Day 0
Well after my positive posts earlier on.... I binged. I don't even know why I did it. Felt lonely I guess, so it might have been a bit of comfort eating. I ate dinner which was crap. I ate cherry crumble...again crap. Then because I'd messed up what I considered to be a good food day, I ate 2 chocolate bars. I then noticed I had 5 left. I got it into my head that it's the weekend tomorrow and so I would start fresh tomorrow. Eating healthy and cutting out sweet stuff completely as I can't seem to have it in moderation or I consider it a binge and end up eating even more. So after deciding this, just to make sure I wont be tempted, I ate the other 5.
I'm such a fat pig. I hate myself right now. At least when I was underweight, it didn't matter physically if I ate too much. I would be allowed to. But being a 'healthy weight' if I keep doing this, I'm going to be OVERweight :(
F*&£K!
I'm such a fat pig. I hate myself right now. At least when I was underweight, it didn't matter physically if I ate too much. I would be allowed to. But being a 'healthy weight' if I keep doing this, I'm going to be OVERweight :(
F*&£K!
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Try not to beat yourself up. What you see as a binge also might not be as bad as if feels to you. Like what a person with ED might see as overeating, may seem normal to a person without ED.
Having said this, I struggle too with these things, so I understand how horrible it feels and how it feels so bad.
Think of all the days you have done so well!!!!!