Day 2 - Processsing

The waves come and go. I feel tired already. I made a call to Al so I could get some support from someone who has been there, who has had struggles with his cancer, fighting through this and beating it round after round. It'll be great to have someone I trust spiritually and physically around.
I asked him to reach out to Jimmy cause I know he's not gonna know what to do, but wholeheartedly will want to do whatever he can.
I told David out of frustration and now I'm worried about how he's gonna process things. DG is pissed off that I told David he put his hands on me while we were married so, now he's cut me off - oh well for me but, problematic for David.
Rose is still on my nerves, trying to let that go and she sent me a song that jut brought me to hysterics on the freeway.... I needed it but, I don't want her around as she will do what she does everytime you don't do what she wants and that's go from 0-100 in .123604830456 seconds and make me feels worse. It's classic, it's what she does and I truly don't want it around me.
I need to find a way to stay positive, to stay in prayer, and to stay strong.
I need a way.