Day 2 Embarrasment

Today I am letting go of the bitterness over embarrasment in the past, due to my lack of basic skills you're supposed to learn at home. This is a hard one too, I was so good at first impressions and aquaintance relationships but I couldn't get the hang of anything deeper. And I lost so many great opportunities. But that feeling I get when I do something stupid out of being too nervous or confused is the worst for me, and the mess I've made to my life because of it. When I think I didn't have to be like this if only I had had better parents, I want to just beat the shit out of everyone of my damn aunts, uncles, and grandparents. But shit happens there's no guarantee that, better parents = well adjusted, right?
Well point is all that is in the past. I was doing the best I could with what I had. Its not my relatives fault that I'm not well adjusted. If I've made bad decisions they were my decisions. If I allowed others to make decisions for me that was still my decision. I was not aware I had a problem with depression and anxiety had I know I would have done things differently. but like my new favorite quote says, "Its never too late to be what you might have been."