day 2 and 3

ok so yesterday i used the day to reflect.
 
i took a book out for inspiration. and i am feeling positive. I told him that i want to end our relationship. unfortunately we have to live together for a while until i find a job. he think its all fun and games. but if it stops the arguments FINE. i am going to focus on my self my goal and my dreams.
so to carry on with my 30 day challenge to keep me focused on my i shouldn't go back to him here we go.
 
bad memory day 2
 
I had  just had our daughter she was a month old and i had a birthday party for him. he drank to much as usual, and when the people left i was left to clean up a disgustingly dirty house. i asked for help as i would have to feed my daughter which then turned out into a fight and he pushed me into the wall i walked away with a broken finger and a broken heart again.
 
good memory day 2
 
he surprised me for my birthday and took me away to a wonderful holiday resort was amazing, although i still felt disconnected i would have like more alone time with him he wanted to do all the activities. but we had fun none the less.
 
bad memory day 3
 
i had just had my son i still had the stitches from my C section. and we got into an argument i cant remember from what it was probably alcohol again and he pushed me i fell and he kicked me in the stomach and closed the door on me it just so happens i was still  lying in the door way.
 
good memory day 3
our wedding day, my family had made our wedding into a fairy tale i  loved it outdoors beautiful i remember walking down the aisle and he looked at me the same way he did the first day we met. i fell in love all over again.
 
so there is day 2 and 3