Day 2

So today is just the 2nd full day of honesty after I came clean about absolutely everything!! I still have no idea where I stand with the love of my life and it is completely gut wrenching. It's a feeling that is completely overwhelming every single time I think about it and honestly I don't think he cares at all anymore. I love him so much I just have to try I owe him that much but at the same time if he has lost that much for me should I back away for him. It's so horrible what lies have done to the people I love I just wish I could really make them see how I feel and how I think in those moments. Maybe they would see it wasn't intentional it evil in anyway. In a positive note I am happy I followed thru did my group and actually wrote this journal. Today was a very busy day and I almost didn't write it! Thank you God firgiving me the will power to want and do this the way I should!!!