Day 1 of porn recovery

I've been addicted to porn/ masturbation on & off since I was molested at 4. I was molested at 4 by the babysitter's 12yr daughter & since then I really haven't been the same. I can have everything under control but porn & masturbation. Before joining this group I watched porn & masturbated. The type of porn I watch is lesbian porn for 2 reasons. 1) because I was molested by a girl & 2) so I don't feel like Im cheating on my boyfriend who I love dearly. After I did what I did I cried out & asked God to forgive me because I hate Disappointing Him. I just hope by talking to others I can get the help I need while understanding why people are struggling also.