day 1 of anniversary....

i was feeling great today....i woke up this morning and things were good and then i had lunch.....and my anxiety sky rocketed!!!!! it's so high!!!! it feels like my heart is racing and i feel my headache getting worse.....i'm feeling really jumpy and like i'm gonna be short of breath.....i'll be fine though....i'm trying to breath deep and trying to calm myself down....my anxiety, though, is so high.....i mean, i freak out if see someone look like M or if i see a car that looks like his or if i see a car behind me or when someone parks next to me...i'm caring for myself and keeping myself safe....i haven't scratched all day, so i'm trying to keep that from happening......SO glad i have therapy tomorrow...i need it!!!!