Day 1 AGAIN

Errr day 1 of no contact again. I hate this feeling. I am so sad and tired all the time. I keep hoping I will hear from him but nothing.  Weekends are the headrest, I dread the time. My son doesn't seem to miss him at all which I am so happy about. I can handle being in pain but I can't handle him being sad. I decided to decorate for Christmas to try to cheer me up. so far it just reminded me of all the plans we had for Christmas that won't happen now:(