day 1
This is the first day of my path to recovery. I feel like if I write it down it will actually make it happen. What is a lie really? It's a defense mechanism for me. I always seem to shut down when confronted and use lies to get out it. Today is the the day that I will become brutally honest about every moment of my life from now on. Even if I have to make that my mantra every day till it finally sticks. What is about this pattern of behavior that keeps me trapped. I need to discover how to break it.
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I feel though as small victory should be noted. I came clean about a lie. I will remember this as a first step towards a greater goal. My mind is so full of stress but this actually made it just a bit more tolerable. This feeling is something I must hold onto because it's better than hating myself for being such a pos