Day 1 - #100DaysWithoutFear

A lot of things make me nervous, scared, worried, whatever... but I am tired of this fear. I want to live life and enjoy myself. I am still young, Lord willing I will have many more years to come. In this time tho, I have let fear take ahold of my life for too long. I'm done with that! Earlier today I came across this "100 Days Without Fear Challenge" and I want to do my own version of this. So today starts day 1. :) 

Tomorrow I have a job interview, but of course I have nothing to wear lol so I must go shopping... However, I have major social anxiety when it comes to shopping especially for clothes. Today, I went to JCPenny and it took me nearly 3 hours to look through, try on, put back and repeat to finally pick out 1 outfit, a pair of black pants and a pretty floral print blouse.

While in this store, all I was thinking about is, What if they are judging me for getting this size shirt or pants? What if they are saying to their friends or thinking to themselves "look how fat she is" etc. What if this.. What if that.. All I wanted to do was to hurry up and find something. At one point I wanted to just give up and go home becasue I kept thinking all these what ifs. The truth is no one really cared what I was doing. They weren't looking at me or in my direction to judge or critic me. They were probably just glancing past and I happened to look in their direction at the same time. We are our own worse critics and we are always wondering what other people thing about us, at least I know that is what I think about sometimes. 

So with all that being said, I am happy to start day 1 off with this experience. Hopefully over time my anxiety reduces and I start feeling more comfortable shopping for myself and by myself. If you have anxiety or fears that you would like to conquer I encourage and hope you will try this 100 day challege with me.

Should be fun!! *laughs nervously*

"If I can do this, I can do anything" (& So can you) Take care you guys.

-ShyGirlLili