Dark Forces 3

Well this journal just continues to be one of misery and woe.A relative, who shall remain nameless has decided to use this opportunity to dredge up the past.Now god knows I am all for talking things out but I have already apologized years ago, I am also assuming that this person knew I was there if she needs to discuss the issue again as we speak all the time.However it seems particularly nasty that she waited until I have so many worries and the fact I needed her to help look after me after my surgery to start again.I imagine she felt in a pretty powerful position because she told me "I am going to help you but you have got to do what I say". OMG!Fortunately I don't need her help for anything. I have friends for that However I am hurt and exhausted as she has been at it all day.I know that surgery is not the panacea for all my woes but I wish March 5 would come.I would at least feel like I am moving ahead.It seems like for the last few years I have lived under such a dark cloud I wouldn't even know where to begin.So here I sit fat and miserable waiting for a new life to begin where hopefully someday I can feel good about myself.Maybe then I will send out wonderful positive vibes.Perhaps then the sun will shine and the universe itself will open up and bend to my desires