Dark days

I used to be a person who loved being in nature, painting, creating, hula hooping, dancing, smiling, and laughing with friends. Over the years I have felt myself declining in excitement and the joy for those things. I look around me and everything I see seems broken, the world, my life. The current state that our world is in really upsets me, hatred, racism, terrorism, bullying, kids hurting. It's so hard to see beauty anymore. I can hardly get out of bed anymore to get to work on time. Some days I stay in bed all day until it's time to go to bed, repeat. I feel so broken and I can't control it no matter how much love someone tries to give to me, sometimes it's just something in your body that makes you feel this way, and a lot of people can't u understand those things.. They just think your a negative person who brings these thoughts upon yourself. It's so hard to explain.