Damn this feeling

I hate this depression. I used to be able to deal with most anything that came my way. Why can't I now? Why does something that someone says upset me so much? I just wish I could just let it slide off my back like I used to be able to. Maybe it is time for a Xanax? I really hate to take any meds unless I have to. I need to get ready now for my app. with the VA Dr.  I hope that the drive there and back will give me time to let this feeling pass.