Went to the counselor Thursday and, as expected, he just went to get me thru this, not to fix the marriage. He was pretty forceful and some anger came out which I haven't seen as of yet. Told the counselor he would not be back, but I'm going to go. I liked her. I'm invited to a party today that we would both normally have gone to. My very good friend. I told her that I would give it a try and I will. Even if I can only make an hour, it will be a start. Start panicking just thinking of it, but I'm a big girl and as long as I can leave when I want and she understands, I do think I'll give it a go. Haven't been to a party in years. H doesn't like them. Trying hard to have at least one thing to do/place to go every day. Just to get me through the days. Friends I haven't even been in contact with for a long time are coming out of the woodwork so maybe I can spread it around so no one gets sick of me.